In My Mind

Just feeling in a free flowing mood so I'm just going to write:

i'm so neurotic

my life's chaotic

and i just don't give a fuck

no i just don't give a fuck
i'm so damn tired

of being lied to

now i just don't give a fuck
just don't give a fuck
about you

i don't think words

can accurately describe the chemical imbalance

that you seem to be causing me to feel...I thank you

for that. You seem to undoubtedly know what to say,

and when to say it, and how to say it. Not sure how

you know, maybe you can read minds. Please

let me know if you can so I can filter my

thought processes when I'm around

you. The sharp pain that

overcomes me when

you leave me

for too

long,

kills me, but it's ok. I know you will be

back to heal my silent wound...

I thank you for that. I thank you for

having to courage to not

hide behind some ridiculous facade.

And for having the courage

to let go of all your inhibitions and

taking a chance on me...

I thank you and love you

unconditionally.

Yippie Ki Ya Mother.... My Top 15 Movies

I am not afraid to admit that I am sort of a movie buff. When my friends have a question about a movie they usually ask me first. I remember most movie names and plots, not too good with movie quotes though. If you describe it to me and maybe who is in it, I can usually remember it, if I can't I always turn to one of my favorite websites: IMDB. It is such a helpful website and I use it all the time for everything from seeing what people rated a movie to seeing what new movies my favorite actors are in. If you have anything that you want to know that is movie related then you should definitely check out that website. Enough of me promoting IMDB...lol. Let's get back on topic, I thought I would give a try at narrowing down my top 15 movies. I am just going to list them and give IMDB's brief synopsis on them. I will eventually say my own opinion on them eventually, just know that I could watch these movies over and over and over again.

15. Crash
Several stories interweave during two days in Los Angeles involving a collection of inter-related characters, a police detective with a drugged out mother and a thieving younger brother, two car thieves who are constantly theorizing on society and race, the white district attorney and his irritated and pampered wife, a racist white veteran cop (caring for a sick father at home) who disgusts his more idealistic younger partner, a successful Hollywood director and his wife who must deal with the racist cop, a Persian-immigrant father who buys a gun to protect his shop, a Hispanic locksmith and his young daughter who is afraid of bullets, and more.

14. The Hurricane
The story of Rubin "Hurricane" Carter, a boxer wrongly imprisoned for murder, and the people who aided in his fight to prove his innocence.






13. Good Will Hunting
Will Hunting, a janitor at MIT, has a gift for mathematics which is discovered, and a psychologist tries to help him with his gift and the rest of his life.






12. Unbreakable
A suspense thriller with supernatural overtones that revolves around a man who learns something extraordinary about himself after a devastating accident.






11. A Time To Kill
A young lawyer defends a black man accused of murdering two men who raped his 10-year-old daughter, sparking a rebirth of the KKK.






10. John Q
A down-on-his luck father, whose insurance won't cover his son's heart transplant, takes the hospital's emergency room hostage until the doctors agree to perform the operation





9. Donnie Darko
A troubled teenager is plagued by visions of a large bunny rabbit that manipulates him to commit a series of crimes, after narrowly escaping a bizarre accident





8. Fight Club
An office employee and a soap salesman build a global organization to help vent male aggression.






7. The Shawshank Redemption
Two imprisoned men bond over a number of years, finding solace and eventual redemption through acts of common decency.



6. Se7en
Two imprisoned men bond over a number of years, finding solace and eventual redemption through acts of common decency.






5. 300
King Leonidas and a force of 300 men fight the Persians at Thermopylae in 480 B.C.





4. American History X
A former neo-nazi skinhead tries to prevent his younger brother from going down the same wrong path that he did.






3. Labyrinth
15-year-old Sarah accidentally wishes her baby half-brother, Toby, away to the Goblin King Jareth who will keep Toby if Sarah does not complete his Labyrinth in 13 hours.





2. Resident Evil Trilogy
a.) A special military unit fights a powerful, out-of-control supercomputer and hundreds of scientists who have mutated into flesh-eating creatures after a laboratory accident.
b.) After an outbreak in a top-secret facility, Umbrella ponders on covering up their mistakes by releasing the deadly Nemesis to eliminate surviving STARS members in Raccoon City
c.) Survivors of the Raccoon City catastrophe travel across the Nevada desert, hoping to make it to Alaska. Alice joins the caravan and their fight against the evil Umbrella Corp.



1. Die Hard Movies
a.) New York cop John McClane gives terrorists a dose of their own medicine as they hold hostages in an LA office building
b.) John McClane is forced to battle mercenaries who seize control of an airport's communications and threaten to cause plane crashes if their demands are not met.
c.) John McClane and a store owner must play a bomber's deadly game as they race around New York while trying to stop him.
d.) John McClane takes on an Internet-based terrorist organization who is systematically shutting down the United States.

Lies, Lies, Lies...

Something I think that I have never understood about people is why they lie about such small silly things to their friends. I mean let's get real, number one we are friends so you should trust me enough to know that I don't care, number two the lying always comes out. So what is the point. There is none. I will give you guys an example of what I am talking about:

Background: D invited her friend from work to hang out with her and her friend S. S got M's number before the night was over. D and M are really good friends and S just talked to her for her first time.
S: So M texted me this morning and said she had so much fun last night with us. And she can't wait to do it again.
D: Oh really. That's nice of her.
S: Yeah it was.
Later that night at work, D and M are talking.
M: So S texted me early this morning and said it was nice to meet me and she can't wait to hang out with me again.
D: (looking confused) She texted you first this morning?
M: Yeah, I usually never text people first. See...
D: Oh that's ok. Well that was nice of her.

So what was the point of her making such a small lie, that doesn't matter. And I think it wouldn't bother me so much, if I knew she didn't do it so much. That is a big pet peeve of mine. Sometimes people lie, but when they lie about insignificant things constantly how are you to ever believe them. I really think she does it because she likes the attention. I use to know someone just like that, but luckily for me they are out of my life now. Except now I have met some one who is just like them. I just wish they wouldn't make up such dumb stuff. I don't give a * who texted you first, or who talked to you first, or if you texted or talked to them first. Doesn't really matter to me. A friendship based on the truth does. So if you are feeling the need to maybe lie to your friend, whether you want them to be jealous or you want attention, think twice. Because in the end the truth will eventually come out, making you look like an idiot and making your friends less likely to believe you.

Posting: Where to Begin...

Let me start by saying that this is probably the 15th time I've created a blog, and like all the other blogs I tell myself that I am going to stick to this and try to post often...we'll see what happens. I don't like to make promises that I know I may not be able to keep. But I will try to post...as often as I can. We'll see how it works out. With that said...HI! My name as far as you are concerned is Dee, which is actually my nickname, probably because people seem to have trouble pronouncing my real name, I don't though. As of right now I am the ripe young age of 21, I'll be 22 next month! Yay for me! I am getting married this coming up January and getting ready to move into a house from my apartment and starting a new job, so that may keep me distracted, especially since I have ADD. Something that sometimes annoys my friends, but I can't help it. I am obsessed with anything artistic, like music, drawing, writing, make up, and anything else, and I love math. Weird combo, I know, but that is me. Uniquely weird. But I think if anyone was to dwelve deep down inside them they would find that they have some weird qualities, whether they share it with the world is another story. I once read that the best way to create a blog is to create one with a purpose. Well since I have always considered myself eclectic, I find it hard to define myself to one subject, so the purpose of this blog is for me to write down my mind's many ramblings. Unfortunately for me my mind is always set on hyper mode, with no way of slowing down, jumping from one topic to another. So why not write it down, and maybe succeed at keeping track of myself. Who knows maybe it will serve a greater purpose one day. Anywho, I'm thankful for anyone who reads this, and if no one does, that's ok too, because I am my own fan! Until next time: Be True, Be You!